I'm not perfect

Hi everyone,

I just wanted to tell you all that......

I'M NOT PERFECT

But I'm ok with that. Today and throughout my life, I've had many comments from people about not being pretty enough,being too shy, being stupid or being too fat.

Even today I was messaging someone and I didn't understand one of the words they used. When I asked, they replied with "so stupid. You are gona have troubles at uni in fact I can't imagine how you got there".

I may not know all the words in the English dictionary but it's ok for me not to know that.

I may not have achieved A*'s in my GCSE's or A levels but all I did was try my very best and that's all I could do. Some days whilst studying for my A levels, I would study at Sixth Form all day, come home, eat something out of a packet, shower and then spend the rest of the day doing homework, reading textbooks or revising (that includes all of the hours that I should've been sleeping too). It wasn't healthy at all but what I thought I was being the 'perfect' student when in reality the best I would get is a B and I'd sit at home feeling absolutely heartbroken that I wasn't not one of the high achievers neither was I able to apply to study at Oxbridge. I wasn't happy and I couldn't carry on like that.

But what I did was perfect in my own way. I got a place at my firm choice university and this time next week, I will have moved into student accommodation and will be the first person EVER in my family to go. I'm very happy with what I've achieved.

I may not be the girl that gets all the compliments or be 'thin enough' but to me it no longer matters. I have smiled while people sent me horrible messages about my looks and I tried to be strong when people that I thought were my friends teased me about my weight, haircut and pretty much everything else they could think of.

I decided to write this post today to let you all know that I've changed but I've changed for the better. I'm not perfect but I never was and I'm never going to be. I've accepted myself for who I am and to anyone else who is struggling I just wanted to tell you that....

YOU WILL GET THERE! Ignore everything that people say about you unless it's something that puts a smile on your face. They don't know who you are and those that say bad things deserve to have zero influence over what you do and how you feel about yourself.

Thanks so much to everyone that reads my posts. After a break, I am back blogging again and I love it <3

Mcsophwar xox